THE BREAKDOWN: KHALIL MADOVI’S [@KHALILMADOVI] ACT II: A COLDHEARTED CONTINUUM

On ACT TWO: A COLDHEARTED CONTINUUM’ Madovi says ‘This project is the second of three parts of this project, A COLDHEARTED SUMMER. Act One – is like the whole story sort of [the] chronicles of a breakup and the post breakup motions that you go through from the perspective of being the one that broke someone else’s heart. Act One is very much going through the pain of the initial stages of heart-break, then Act Two is the story of understanding that, in order to serve that type of situation, you have to serve yourself. It’s exploring the enjoyment of finding yourself again outside of a relationship.’

TEK TIME

Everything I write is from life experience. This song in particular – one of my boys, he was running an event at The Haggerston and there was this one babes – you know, throughout the night you’re with who you’re with and there are certain people you just keep clocking. 

We didn’t lock in until the very last song of the night. Everyone had to go so I went back to the studio, literally to sleep because it was long [going] all the way back to South and in my head I just had the idea for the hook of that song. The whole concept was [that] I’ve connected with you now at a point where we all have to leave, but this connection – I’m feeling it so much that we can take our time and f**k the rules, f**k what else is going on, and let’s just enjoy this moment. That’s how ‘TEK TIME’ came about and that’s an example of when you are moving through this second stage of a post-relationship process, just enjoying and indulging.

PICCADILLY

I was born in South London, but I spent a number of years growing up in Manchester before coming back down here for uni in 2016. So I’ve got a lot of friends, a lot of family up North. ‘PICCADILLY’ is the sneaky link jam and also to connect back to that side. Across this project I’m displaying the many sides of myself, I also wanted to show love to my Manny heritage, so that’s just a nice little dancey rhythm that’s fun and is full of the playful and fun energy of just enjoying [and] being outside.

THE ONE – Interlude Version

‘THE ONE’ is about when you’re in this indulgent, “it’s whatever” mode. You can actually still be very emotionally sensitive and triggered by very specific things and ‘THE ONE’ is a song about being inspired by a particular muse. I’d been hit by something that made me feel like I wanted to be everything this person could want. Despite being the type of woman who might have seen it all already, let me show you what you don’t know that you’re missing and the full version of that song explains it more. [On] the interlude version, you only get a taste of it. The full version of this song is soon to be exclusively available to everyone that’s part of my members club – No More Morals. That’s coming and a couple of other exciting and interesting things around gaining access to the full song for everyone as well are coming.

GOING BAD

We end this phase of the story, Act Two, on ‘GOING BAD’ which is again, about when you are in this outside, insensitive, fun post breakup mode. At the time I came to find some news about my ex and a bunch of her new friends that I had never seen. Eventhough we were in a relationship for a while, I’d never seen these girls. I know that sometimes there can be a bag of friends that you just hop into post-breakup to help your movement through the situation but I remember they were heavily outside. I was also outside because it’s what I needed in order to move forward and grow through this situation but I was seeing stuff to the point where this is not even the person that I knew. At this stage, we were both indulging in various coping mechanisms and it like if you weren’t privy to what our dynamics and relationship was beforehand, it could look like something else in this current moment. 

It’s that moment where, yes, this is a breakup situation, but we’re still people that care about each other. However, we’re now in a place where external influences and noise is polluting and poisoning this thing that we have or had. You still appreciate the value of a person and that connection, just on a human-to-human level, there’s always gonna be a certain level of respect and appreciation I can have for who you are. At this point, all these external influences on both sides are ruining that – the respect, the value, the love that we can have for each other, even through these difficult times. ‘GOING BAD’ explores that and that trigger point from that place of deep sensitivity then goes on to trigger the rest of what we speak about in Act Three. That’s why ‘GOING BAD’ was kind of a good place to wrap up this act, this chapter of this ever-growing and ever-evolving story. 

ON ACT THREE…

It’s a lot more emotional. I go to the deepest depths of the pain that is on my side because again, yes, I was the bad guy here, but with the nature of this situation in particular, it hurt me that I had to hurt this person. For those that have heard songs like ‘CROSSOVER’, ‘TROPHY WIFE’ and ‘PACE’ on Act One, this was a situation I initiated, but it wasn’t easy and there was still a lot of love, respect and care there. I had to go into myself and explore, rediscover, realign myself, which is what we’re doing in Act Two, and then I get caught off guard emotionally, that puts me in a space where come Act Three, I’m very much really doing the deep digging, relearning and understanding of what this pain within me is, what the pain that I’ve caused for this other person is and why. There’s a song on there called ‘1049’ which is the number of days that I was with this person and that song really touches on why I felt I had to do what I did, what it meant to me, what I could see it doing to her as well.

We were almost reborn by the end of it because – like I’ve mentioned this whole thing of relearning and understanding was in order for me to be greater and understand myself. By the time I feel like I’ve done that I’m almost a new person in a lot of respects. There’s a lot of changes and phases that I’ve had to go through from the beginning of ‘CROSSOVER’ to the end of Act Three. By the end of it, we’re feeling back on top with a new understanding, a new perspective and a new mindset.